Its easy to sit behind a computer and throw stones at someone. However I have never used this to poke fun or make people feel self-conscious. I feel more and more people are not communicating to one another and find it easier to slip into a make believe world.
Lets say your not in the Christmas "spirit". If there were such a thing I haven't felt it for years. Sorry folks. That's just how my heart feels. I dread the holidays. They only remind me of chaos and unhappiness as a child. Sure I have had years were I felt happy inside but not this one. Granted there is only 7 days to Christmas it couldn't be over soon enough for me. I am excited for Christian and I know he will receive everything he ask for on his list. As for myself and Beth we decided to take it easy this year and spend small amounts on one another. Christmas December 25th is more to me about the birth of man who spent his entire existence on convincing people he was Christ. Only to be the ultimate sacrifice for our salvation. I wish I could turn back the clock and remember what the holidays meant. I think I have a mental block from the ages of 6 to 18. I miss my grandfather. I hate my parents didn't work out. I hate that I don't feel much emotion or joy. I will do my best to fake a smile and hope that some sort of Christmas miracle will occur.
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